I was doing a review in physics class today using this system called Qwizdom. It's like playing "Who Wants To Be A Millionaire?" except everyone has a electronic remote pad and they must answer the question within the time limit. It isn't that complex really even though it was my first time playing this game. The questions focused on biology which I have done 2 years ago so I was a little rusty. Everyone was doing ok at first but when I figured out that they were only guessing and trying to be the fastest one, I was disappointed. My teacher was handing out candy anyway to those who got the question right first so either that was the motivation or getting the most points. I took my time answering the questions all the way through the game while the others eventually just punched in an answer right when the question came up. Still, I think it just isn't right at all. I seem to be the only one to value learning more than my peers and that... is really sad. The same thing goes for my math class. What is happening around me? I'm in 11th grade classes and these guys haven't gotten a grasp on reality yet? It's about learning and discovering, not pure fun and games. I wish I could help them but I can't... I don't have the authority to teach.

Ever wondered where the myth of dragons comes from? We see art, stories, and even movies about these creatures. Most can say this came from the bible or research but... that doesn't seem to explain it. If they were real...where are they now? Take a wild guess. They are not on Earth for starters...

Hi, it's me again. I'm still doing the things I normally like doing like making video walkthroughs. Unfortunately I seem to be having trouble with it since I'm unable to access a website that I need data from. Even though it's something useful for others to use, I want to do something else. I have been trying to write a script (not a code, just cinematic and notes at the moment) for a game that I have been pondering on for years but most of the time my parents just discourage me from doing it. I just freak out when someone comes around when I'm working...I don't know why but I do. I wish I didn't. It's focused on the game series of Spyro the Dragon. It's...interesting to think about and evolve even though it has it's ups and downs. I think I might be able to help turn it around with these ideas I have written up and look forward to seeing them in action. If they don't work, I can always implant them somewhere else and try to make a living that way. Now that's only one thing I want to do but I could also try creating music. That can be more difficult though since my thoughts dart about and I have to really concentrate to find a good melody or rhythm in there somewhere. I find it easier to hum them aloud so I'm clearly focused on vocalizing the music than trying to think about it. It's like my mind is clear of all distractions... and I wish it was too. The third thing I can do is voice acting. I can put on a couple of accents and pitches but sometimes it's hard to maintain such a state for a long time. I can do the voice of Spyro or Neapolitan Dynamite if I wanted to, gosh!
     I can get a job in one way or another but I need to practice. That's a problem. With school cutting into my time and my strange shyness issue, I find it difficult to do anything. I don't think I can stand it much longer. Lord, when will I change?  I'm still waiting patiently but I might bust at any second. (Amusingly, this doesn't happen even if I think it will) Well, I better find something to do besides sit here typing out my inner conflicts to the public...if anyone ever reads it. *Sigh*

I have been pondering on this thought for awhile so...here goes. I don't talk very much because words don't come easily to me. I might have them in my head subconsciously but I can't figure out why I won't say them. It seems that I'm shy but really it's that I'm chained up inside. I know it sounds strange...let me put it this way. Imagine you have this conversation with someone and you come up with something to say. You hesitate on your choice of words and before you know it the topic of conversation goes elsewhere. I hate it when that happens. When someone wants you to carry the conversion you have no idea what to start off with that might interest both you and the participants. If you take too long to think up of something someone else may start getting impatient and taunt, distract, and irritate you or just walk away. Do you understand what I mean? It looks like I know what to say right now but I really take time to think about it before typing it here.

From what I seen and experience in school, then how am I going to work with others if they don't wait on me?

I'm been kept pretty busy with the new trimester at Sachse High School. Most of my English, Math, and Physics are leaving me doing leftover homework which is cutting into my spare time. Since my parents want me to do a walk 5 days a week I don't know how I'm going to keep up. I might pray that this will start to smooth out along the way but for now I'm having to just go along for the ride. At least it's a good motivation to get out of my lazy routine of being on the computer or the video game consoles all the time. It's a hard habit to break when you have autism. Yes, I have it but it isn't slowing me down.

Why do I sweat so much? I never understand that. Most of the time I feel hotter than I should and check my temperature just to be safe. It shows to be normal around 98.4 F but I'm still a little concerned. I keep getting these small side effects like sore throat, itchy skin, slightly sticky eyelids, and dry mouth. My achene hasn't gone away either but that's actually my fault. I keep picking at the scabs from time to time but I really want them gone. I don't look good with them all over my face all the way to the shoulders.

I have been busy with alot of things lately. Mostly it's just the walkthroughs that I do on YouTube and other sites when I get the chance. I also had some people on spyroforums look at my concepts and one of them criticized it because he thinks it won't get into the market. If he was mentioning the market that it is right now then I think by the time the game gets through the market will be in a different stance than it is now. He might want to hold his tongue for awhile since the game design hasn't even been thawed out yet. I'm so busy with other things that I can't seem to find the time to work on it right now.
Speaking of the market, my city, Sachse, was reported by News 8 (WFAA) of it's well being last night. They say that the city has much lower taxes than one of its neighbors, Arlington, which has three times the number of its population. Go Sachse! It's a good thing too that I live here.