I have been pondering on this thought for awhile so...here goes. I don't talk very much because words don't come easily to me. I might have them in my head subconsciously but I can't figure out why I won't say them. It seems that I'm shy but really it's that I'm chained up inside. I know it sounds strange...let me put it this way. Imagine you have this conversation with someone and you come up with something to say. You hesitate on your choice of words and before you know it the topic of conversation goes elsewhere. I hate it when that happens. When someone wants you to carry the conversion you have no idea what to start off with that might interest both you and the participants. If you take too long to think up of something someone else may start getting impatient and taunt, distract, and irritate you or just walk away. Do you understand what I mean? It looks like I know what to say right now but I really take time to think about it before typing it here.

From what I seen and experience in school, then how am I going to work with others if they don't wait on me?

I'm been kept pretty busy with the new trimester at Sachse High School. Most of my English, Math, and Physics are leaving me doing leftover homework which is cutting into my spare time. Since my parents want me to do a walk 5 days a week I don't know how I'm going to keep up. I might pray that this will start to smooth out along the way but for now I'm having to just go along for the ride. At least it's a good motivation to get out of my lazy routine of being on the computer or the video game consoles all the time. It's a hard habit to break when you have autism. Yes, I have it but it isn't slowing me down.

Why do I sweat so much? I never understand that. Most of the time I feel hotter than I should and check my temperature just to be safe. It shows to be normal around 98.4 F but I'm still a little concerned. I keep getting these small side effects like sore throat, itchy skin, slightly sticky eyelids, and dry mouth. My achene hasn't gone away either but that's actually my fault. I keep picking at the scabs from time to time but I really want them gone. I don't look good with them all over my face all the way to the shoulders.